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Follow me into the dark

Follow me into the flame

Come toward the heavenly spark

While casting down thy earthly shame

Pass hungry eyes and fire bright

Through dungeon cells and piercing wails

I beckon child to my sight

In my strength you shall not fail.

I didn't know

I saw you today,
Your shirt,
The one you wore the first time we met.
It was a beautiful day,
But hot.
Rode in a bus, a dirty bus
To a Tennessee church camp.
Who would have known?

Who would have known
What we'd become.
Avoided you at first,
But then your eyes... they drew me in.
Late night talks
Stealing looks across the room
Bloomed.
Who would have known?

Who would have known
We'd fall in love,
All butterflies
Sneaking kiss
My friends revolt,
"Don't fall for him!"
They cautioned me.
Who would have known?

Who would have known
How much time would pass
How much we talked
How close we grew.
We fought little
Trusted lots
From so far away.
Who would have known?

Who would have known
How hard it would become.
Unrequited love
Shut in a box, caged
It could have worked,
From my perspective
Not yours.
Who would have known?

Who would have known
I'd give you up
My love
My heart decays,
It wilts
But love's eternal, it will not die
Who would have known?
Not me.

Sacrifice

I used to be your angel,
Your light in times of dark,
Your love and life and dream come true,
But now I have lost you.

Said some things I didn't mean,
And lied a little bit,
To help you to get over me
Until one day you'll see:

I wasn't all you thought I was,
Not even close, my dear.
I've fallen short on many counts,
Am worth a small amount.

Apart from me you're better off,
Tho my sacrifice does hurt
This heart of mine,
But now I must resign.

You will move on,
My purpose complete
To help you heal
While my heart breaks, it breaks.

Sleep deprived haiku

Red spotted llamas
Eat homemade banana bread
And bark at the moon.

More Haiku

Pictures strung on trees
Paint ten-thousand memories
Are only raindrops.

I played with haiku's today...

the soft diamond falls
and blooms upon the girl's cheek
as she gasps for air.

tethered to a tree
the colors of the rainbow
dance in solitude.

kiss the rose petals:
flashbacks of haunting memories
sprint to the surface.

whispered lullabies,
like lions in the jungle
crouch beneath the wave.

This was written for me July 18, 2010.

Because of love
They kingdom has come
Bearing me a heart of love.
Imparting the understanding of Thy's
Divine nature.
To give oneself
Selflessly obeying thy father.
As heaven and earth collide
My flesh and blood will fail
But my love will live on in the perfect
Way he made me.
Thy kingdom is coming
Only through faith one will see this
Glorious kingdom.
In this sinful nature we were born one
Rises from the dust through faith.
Trusting in the plan of my
Father in heaven.
Trust in the love God has given me.
Trust in the person who I shall spend my life with.
Growing closer to our father as we grow older, wiser.
Thy spirit gives us strength.
Gives us hope.
Gives us our blessing.
Bestow them upon us as we praise
You.
Flood our hearts with your burning
Love.
Fill our souls with your calming
Voice.
Love our love for one another glorify you.
For you have brought two broken souls
Together.
Together you have made us one.
I feel her pain as she feels mine.
Continue to bless us Father, as we
continue to love.

I love you Savannah.

This was written for me July 7, 2010.

Forever will I fight forever will I love
Forever will I care for you Forever will I
hold you forever will I be yours forever
will you be my first thought
Forever will you be in my dreams
Forever will you have a place in my heart
Forever will you have my heart.

This was written for me on July 6, 2010.

Do not be offended these are just my
defenses
I put them up in fear of pain
I continue to work
Work
and work
On breaking down these iron curtains
I cannot
Do this alone
In this battle I need you
My general
My chief of staff
My love
My better half
I continue to wrestle with God
About these wounds I have suffered
I have suffered through pain
that eats away at my core
Please be patient
I know I drive you away
But you have already helped me
I now trust J---
Before I can walk I must crawl
So continue to pray for me
I need the strength
God is here with me
Teach me to let go
Teach me to love
Teach me to trust
Teach me to trust
Teach me to trust
Teach me to trust those I love
I don't want you to say those words
Those words that make me break down
And weep
Weep and weep
I love you Sav
Sav bear
love
baby
babe
You mean the world to me
Please
Please
Do not give up
Please help me
Remove those arrows that are tearing my heart in two
because
Savannah
Idk what I'd do if I lost you
Although I worry and fret
Over analyze
Over think
Over complicate
I love you
These are my defenses
I try to control my world
But my world should be our world
And our world is controlled by
The one who has the plan that brought
Us together
The one who we praise for our love
The one who makes all things new
The one who frees the enslaved
The one who heals the broken hearted
The one who will make our love grow
With him in the equation
WE WILL NOT SURRENDER
I love you Savannah
I'm sorry for everything...

Idk if that's a poem it's more like a bunch of thoughts I love you

This was written for me on July 3, 2010.

To my love:
You are the woman for me
I love the way you look at me
I love your smile
I love how silly we are
I love that little voice you talk to me in
I love how close we are
I love how we are best friends
I love how our love has grown
I love how our faith has grown
I love how in love I am with you
I hope you sleep well & I hope you
are okay. I would do anything for you!!!
I love you!!

Runner's Remorse

Running fast or walking slow
Don't matter
For anywhere I go
It hurts.

This loss, this curse, this fact
Sucks
I wish it were something else I lacked
Like sight.

Just push a button or use a cane
Other senses too.
At least then I would feel no pain
Or see the shame.

Maybe it's a good thing though
I hope
I guess that I will never know
Let's run.

Whispered Lullabies

All these empty feelings
Thoughts crashing in my head
Fill me with hate
Fill me with pain
Fill me with lies.

All these empty promises
Beckon for my heart
They want my time
They want my devotion
They want my life.

But what all those
unfulfilling lies
Don't recognize
I do despise
Their filthy stench and stain

I don't need that pain
I brush it off
'Cause I've got one on my side
Who has crushed the world

He's on my side
Through every trial
Through every false turn
Through tears and smiles

And he will not give up on me
He holds my heart
And sings whispered lullabies in my ear.

Progression

A stranger I once was to you,
A shadow in the night;
But now, my love, our hearts are one,
Bright shining in the sun.

For where one walks the other is,
Distant but not apart;
This dwelling place takes sacred part,
You live within my heart.

I love you more than words can say
Or deeds can ever show,
But maybe in the passing time
This depth you'll get to know.

Your name comes first each morning new,
And final thought each night;
Impossible to flee my mind,
Forever in my life.

So with each breath and passing day
I hope it won't grow old
For you to hear, "My dear, I'm here,
Together 'till the end."

I love you, too

The two of us
have fallen in love;
A match from above;
My heart's in your hands.

We pray and we sing
to our Savior and King,
Who put us together
to increase our faith.

Our hearts intertwined;
Can't tear them apart.
I'm so thankful for you,
And all that you do.

You
Comb my hair
and
Hold me tight
and
Kiss me soft
and
Whisper "I love you."

You
Pick me up
and
Treat me so well
and
Protect my heart
and
Take good care of me.

Through laughter and tears,
I hope the next four years
brings us down the path
that we're destined to go.

Let's trust in our God;
It's all we can do;
And know in your heart
that I love you, too.

My Prayer

Give it up;
Let it go;
All things new;
Let it rain.

Keep

I wrote this a long time ago and just found it in a random stack of papers while cleaning my room.

Rushing wind
Billowing fire
A screaming child
Trampled rose
Thundering storm
Rushing, rushing

A run from time
Make it stop
Breath, keep, be

And the laughter
And the wind
And the water
Will come crashing down

The echo calls to me by night
In my dreams I feel sorrow
For what was lost
What could have been

And yet I keep breathing
I keep keeping
I keep being
Until one day
When I can leave it all behind

Let It Rain

So broken, here I stand
Waiting for the shower
Of your love to rain down.
My arms spread wide
And my heart is pierced
Awaiting your healing,
But you don't come
And I'm still waiting,
Calling, searching, aching;
O let it rain; let it rain.
Lord, heal my heart,
Teach me to see
Your love for me,
And let me know
You don't let go;
I'll cling to you,
But Lord it's hard
To always trust
That you are on my side.
The dark one steals, kills, and destroys
Your beautiful creation.
So strike him down,
You rule over all
The big and small.
I need you now
Like never before,
Please guard my heart
And let it grow
Closer to you
And know the truth.
You are the Way;
You are the Truth;
You're in me Lord,
And so I say
I'm alive to live for you.
So in my hour of dark despair
I'll call to you
My shepard, care
For me, your sheep,
My soul you keep.
And start the light
Glowing in me
To praise your son
Who's love rains down;
It rains.

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry for the way I was;
I'm sorry for my pride,
My selfishness and lack of trust;
I'm sorry that I failed.

I wish I could take all that back,
Give you what you deserve;
Another chance is all I want,
But this chance you won't give.

I want to be your girl, your sun;
I want to treat you right,
To make you smile with delight
And warm your precious heart.

I know you're worth it till the end,
Why else would I be here?;
To ask for your forgiveness dear,
And set my wrongs to right.

Beloved

Beloved, I made you;
Beloved, it's true;
I knit you together
In your mother's womb.

Beloved, I want you;
Beloved, come near;
Listen to my heartbeat;
It calls out to you.

Beloved, I know you;
Beloved, don't run;
For you're lost without me
And my tender care.

Beloved, you shun me;
Beloved, come back;
I spread my arms wide, dear;
Don't ignore my call.

Beloved, I break you;
Beloved, it hurts;
But you wouldn't listen;
I looked for you then.

Beloved, I love you;
And have a great plan
To free you from bondage
In my promised land.

Miss

So hurt, I cry;
I miss your hugs, your eyes,
Your lips, your touch,
Your arms, your heart,
Your words, your mind,
Your laugh, and smile;
I cry, I cry, I cry,
I miss your time,
Your presence, your hands,
Your texts, your warmth,
Your chest, your smell;
I hurt for you;
I miss you so;
I fell for you;
I can't let go.

Pain

So lost; so numb; so hurt;
We should be playing in the snow,
Stealing kisses
Between fits of laughter,
And I'd tickle you,
And laugh with you, my prince.

So cold; alone, I cry;
Scratching at my eyes
To rid myself of your beautiful face,
Your sweet touch,
And smile; your lips;
Your beautiful blue eyes.

Should be sipping hot chocolate in your arms;
I love those arms; I miss;
Should have told you sooner,
I forgive you; I love you;
I miss you; come back.
So lost; so cold; so broken.

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Your smile gives me sun and joy,

Your embrace gives me peace;

Your look gives me sweet butterflies,

And sweeps me off my feet.

Your laughter makes my heart so light,

Your presence makes me safe;

Your voice makes me smile with delight,

And draws me close to you.

Your heart affirms my faith in you,

Your touch affirms my trust;

Your patience is worth more than gold,

Let not your kindness rust.

I love to spend my time with you,

I love to know you more;

I love to rest in your sweet care,

And listen to your heart.

I feel alive when I’m with you,

I see your precious heart;

I know to you my all I’ll give,

You had me from the start.