This was written for me on July 6, 2010.

Do not be offended these are just my
defenses
I put them up in fear of pain
I continue to work
Work
and work
On breaking down these iron curtains
I cannot
Do this alone
In this battle I need you
My general
My chief of staff
My love
My better half
I continue to wrestle with God
About these wounds I have suffered
I have suffered through pain
that eats away at my core
Please be patient
I know I drive you away
But you have already helped me
I now trust J---
Before I can walk I must crawl
So continue to pray for me
I need the strength
God is here with me
Teach me to let go
Teach me to love
Teach me to trust
Teach me to trust
Teach me to trust
Teach me to trust those I love
I don't want you to say those words
Those words that make me break down
And weep
Weep and weep
I love you Sav
Sav bear
love
baby
babe
You mean the world to me
Please
Please
Do not give up
Please help me
Remove those arrows that are tearing my heart in two
because
Savannah
Idk what I'd do if I lost you
Although I worry and fret
Over analyze
Over think
Over complicate
I love you
These are my defenses
I try to control my world
But my world should be our world
And our world is controlled by
The one who has the plan that brought
Us together
The one who we praise for our love
The one who makes all things new
The one who frees the enslaved
The one who heals the broken hearted
The one who will make our love grow
With him in the equation
WE WILL NOT SURRENDER
I love you Savannah
I'm sorry for everything...

Idk if that's a poem it's more like a bunch of thoughts I love you